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'I wish him harm - and that's not pleasant': Tom Meagher can't forgive wife's killer Adrian Bayley

After more than two years, Jill Meagher’s husband has turned his anger and grief into positive action.

TOM MEAGHER CONTINUES his advocacy work to educate men about violence against women, a positive that emerged after an unhealthy “obsession” with his wife’s killer.

A young Irish woman living in Australia, Jill Meagher was raped and murdered by Adrian Bayley on 22 September 2012 after a night out with her colleagues.

She was a short distance from her home when Bayley, a convicted rapist, attacked her.

Her body was not discovered for another six days.

“For me, it became an obsession to figure out what was going on with him – and with the system that allowed him to be on the streets,” Meagher told Today with Seán O’Rourke this morning.

Focussing on him as an individual was damaging in a way, too much of an obsession, but I got through that and over it.

What came next was a campaign to change the laws in Australia and meetings with the parole boards. The chairman conceded that there had been an error on the board’s part.

Bayley had been out on parole when he murdered the 29 year old.

“I think he started his career as a criminal when he was 17,” Meagher continued this morning. “He raped his sister’s friend. He committed 16 counts of brutal [rape]. Five women who were prostitutes in the suburb of St Kilda. The torture they went through… was unbelieveable. I physically vomited when I read [the court documents]. They were so disturbing.”

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In his work with the White Ribbon Campaign, Meagher has tried to educate people that not all rapists are ‘monsters and Adrian Bayleys’.

“It’s almost like, I didn’t expect him to be an intelligent human being. I didn’t expect him to be human at all. I had heard him make utterances, but always monosyllabic.

Hearing him say a full sentence triggered something in me to know where this violence comes from.

“Whenever we see a rapist in the tabloids or media – this idea of someone hiding out in lanes. But 90% of rapes are committed by people who know the victim. A lot of the time they are committed in the home – by husbands, fathers or brothers.”

Although he admits that Bayley has “gone too far” to be rehabilitated, he thinks education can encourage others not to equate power and domination with masculinity, or to accept casual use of violent language in male settings.

He says the world needs to question how it teaches both boys and girls about domination and power.

The White Ribbon Campaign was set up after a university shooting in Canada.

“It’s a call to men to end violence against women, to talk about these issues and discuss issues around this issue.  Men are the primary perpetrators, so we need to address men and the wider culture. Shine a light on something that has been swept under the carpet.”

He added that Bayley is “beyond help”, adding that he knows some “bits about his upbringing” which included physical abuse by his father, sexual abuse by a woman and a “cycle of violence”.

“I suppose in regards to him – I’m quite blinkered. I think he has done this too many times, the same crime. There’s no way back from that.”

Asked if he could ever utter the word forgiveness in relation to Jill’s killer, Tom said, “Absolutely not.”

He occupies my thoughts… And when he does, I wish him harm. That is not a pleasant thing to say or a pleasant thing to feel. But it’s the truth.

The Adrian Bayleys of the world are not the target of the campaign, he added. It’s about building a school programme and having ambassadors to change the “sexist and patriarchal society we live in”.

Concluding the interview, Meagher said it is rare that his wife is not “somewhere in his thoughts” and that he reads the following quote from a Maya Angelou poem each morning.

History, despite its wrenching pain, cannot be unlived, but if faced with courage, need not be lived again.

To find out more about the White Ribbon Campaign in Ireland visit the website or read Tom Meagher’s blog. A conference will be held in Ireland on 25 November and more information is available here

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    Sep 8th 2019, 8:49 PM

    Yet the gaa which has terrible participation rates get the majority if grants. More pools, cycle tracks , astro pitches etc needed

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    Sep 8th 2019, 9:37 PM

    Sport is not the answer to mental health issues, I know a lot of people that suffer immense sports anxiety. I know 1 person in particular that suffered huge depression as a result of the team losing a number of matches where he took the blame on himself. Unfortunately sport is not a quick fix, there is none. We need to manage the expectations and pressures we put on people as a nation.

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    Sep 8th 2019, 9:54 PM

    @Davis Payne:

    There is no better solution for anxiety than exercise. Power lifting in particular.

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    Sep 9th 2019, 12:24 AM

    @Davis Payne: yes and another thing..hands were made to use, more hobbies, more diy…more community involvement, more jobs for pocket money from a young age. Less social media.

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    Sep 8th 2019, 10:25 PM

    Sport is not the answer , your deluded if you think that , it’s a help but not the answer , will sport be there when your down in yourself at midnight , what about lots of guys who just can’t stand sport it’s not the answer for them , who makes up this stuff .

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    Sep 8th 2019, 10:31 PM

    Men are not so irrational. When they are stressed it is usually because of real iddues like financial or relationship problems or loneliness. There’s a lot society can do (get rent under control,.make young men feel wanted in work and like their life has direction, give young people back some free time so they can actually socialise and meet women/men rather than work and go to the gym.all the time) and not as much an individual can do for themselves because these big issues are out of our hands.

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    Sep 9th 2019, 9:50 AM

    Every 6 weeks we get a Lynn knows best article…..

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    Sep 8th 2019, 9:57 PM

    100% correct doesn’t work for everyone but for many it is the light at the e d of a dark tunnel.

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    Sep 9th 2019, 7:13 AM

    Sport isn’t a blanket answer to mental health issues. I’ve played competitive sports from a young age. If you have low self esteem to begin with, you need to be very careful what sports you choose to participate in. From what i’ve seen in the various sports and clubs i’ve been in, bullying and verbal abuse is rife in them.

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    Sep 9th 2019, 1:16 PM

    @Dave Doyle: I agree whole-heartedly with you on this. I lost all interest in sporting activity for years as a result of such abuse.

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    Sep 9th 2019, 8:18 AM

    All young men should do two years compulsory military service. They will learn the value of discipline, fitness, comradeship, and taking care of themselves.

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